Her mind.....

Randomly thought about you today, I want out....I feel like you are pulling me back, i get totally miffed when you assume that you know me...it irks me when you think you can control my life or you want to know everything about me...we had something..(Yayyy), had being 'past tense'...I want to breathe , i dont want to think about you .U were a phase i should have ended even before its conception. I want to be free, i want to be my own person ..so please leave me and let me be in peace...I dont know if i'll miss you , I shouldnt even miss you  but the more i try not to , you are stuck in my head.

I'm not mad at you but i'm not happy being with you either..With you, it's a bitter sweet feeling. one minute i'm all goofy smiles..next minute i feel dejected, i want to pluck my eyes out ..*sigh*..Thank you for the fantastic times, I cant say i enjoyed it but a mumbled THANK YOU' will do...so i set you free, go ahead and live your life, go ahead and love another , go ahead and find peace elsewhere.

I lied when i said ' i loved you', i dont but it felt like the convenient way of letting myself breathe..I dont love you, never have , never will..I wish you the best, please don't think about me.

xoxo
someone....

Blogo...

Hello lovelies..yes i havent blogged in a bit, i knoww. i tell u blogging isn't as easy as i thought, there are days i have so much to say , other days it's totally blehhh...anewais for a bit now , i have been ranting about menswear ..truth is, in another life if i don't end up being a DJ, i'd really want to design menswear.i love the tailoring, details , styling and all and believe it or not guys actually have a lot to play with when it comes to fashion it's not just the everyday basic  teeshirt and jeans...oh well, I'm currently obsessed with Marni and burberry prorsum's mens coat, pictures would come up later in a bit for your perusal...


Have a Fab day..

Gros bisous...

Dear LOvE...

It'll be a tad bit cliche if the topic of 'Love' isnt mentioned on this blog..I mean majority of the blogs i follow have littered love posts all over...Anewais it's a day before valentines day...Am i giddy with excitement?..sadly, NO...Not to be a sodding cow or anything but really who am i kidding, tomorrow will be another 'random' monday and at this point the only person asides God who probably gives a rat's tutu about me is my Dad, and ohhh how i dread the fone call, he'll probably lambast me and start with the usual 'so you dont even have any guy in your life'.bla bla bla, over and over again..*Sigh*...PAUSE!!!!

This is totally random by the way but has anyone noticed how you never find a man during Vals day, then after vals all them guys start filing out like sticks in a matchbox..yet another "sigh"....looking back on my past relationship i cant really think of any swoon worthy vals day (Note, I have only been val'd once).....oh well!!! in as much as i claim not to be all mushy , i'd really want to have a vals day spent with someone i'm hopelessly in love with, it doesn't necessarily have to be all fancy party kinda thing...I wanna send him love notes telling him random/beautiful things about how good he has been to me...I wanna spend the entire day basking in his love and affection...It doesn't have to be all mushy mushy all through but basically messing about, reminding him why i chose Him'..a lot of people are blinded by the fact that on vals day, it's the man's responsibility to perform , like doing all the loving, plan all the activities bla bla but i think women should at least try to spoil their partner a LOT...

Anewais to all those in a relationship i leave u with this quote by Thomas Carlyle ..."A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge'...

And to my gorgeous single ladies/guys, have a fantastic valentines day filled with love, happiness, chocolate longing and strawberry trifles....xoxo

P.S...a lil phil collins n Eric Clapton to put u in a bubbly mood...

Phil collins- This must be love

Eric Clapton-You were wonderful tonight

Gros Bisous...

Wale....

For those of you that dont know him he is a rapper/poet..poet u say??...well his music is like poetry, deep, meaningful and it tells a story.I recently started listening to him..well, a friend forced me to listen to him and i havent looked back ever since.yeah yeah..some of you might not be into the rap thingy but trust me this is totally different..

Listen to his "Ambitious girl"..

Ambitious girl, the drive-drive me crazy
I'm tryna stay with you, lay with you
I'll pay your tuition, pray with you if you aint into wishin
I'm tryna fxck the shxt out your aspirations
see, the last one I dated, I hated
we wake up, i go to work, she leave out
come back with some make up, high heels, and a purse, or
worse i ask, "Babygirl, what you aspire to be?"
she reply to me like, "why you perspiring me?" bxtch..
pardon me if I'm sweating you but,
I wanna see something else in you before I invest in you
ambitious girl, (what you sitting for)
I'd rather you tell me to hit you later,
because you gotta finish a paper
then to be in my face asking for a rosea cup
see these bxtches can't cut in yo business
I'm in love with your business
and your productivity is the reason I intrest, ambitious girl
see, I like the person that you are,
but I'm in love with the person that you have potential to be

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/ambitious-girl-lyrics-wale.html ]

and all your dreams sharing with me
and your secrets baring with me
and the flaws, you aint even got to mention to me,
ambitious girl, you just wanna win, and you'd rather chase your dreams,
then to try to chase these men
that try to chase these skirts
that try to chase these shots with flavors that not even as sweet as her
my ambitious girl, I wont forget you,
I just reflect on how I aint met you, yet boo
you somewhere, getting your life in order
so for the time being, i hope this (overscribe) might support her
support her, or work her, she worth it
go girl X3, ambition
go girl X7, ambition
go girl X7, ambition
ambition X7

  Gros bisous...

Welcome to paperhigh.com

Okk..i've been obsessing over dem eco-friendly notebooks/journals from paperhigh..I like to scribble down random stuff and i'm totally fascinated with paper high's handmade paper products, I'm even thinking of getting a set for valentines day..so i just might get one.

Gros Bisous..

Gianmarco Lorenzi...

Sadly i don't own a pair of his fabulous shoes but that doesnt mean i cant drool over them..i know soon and very soon i'll be able to afford dem magnifique shoes...anewais not to jibber jabber and bore the living daylights outta you...here are some pictures for ur viewing pleasure...

: Gianmarco lorenzi Crystal Platform Pump

Gianmarco Lorenzi Black Flower Suede

 Gianmarco Lorenzi Black Tulle

Gianmarco Lorenzi Suede Bow Sandal

 Gianmarco Lorenzi Cash Taupe Suede

Gianmarco Lorenzi Black A0D0E7505 Black Suede

*Sigh*.......Beautiful shoessss!!!

Gros Bisous....

Week-end en images!!!!!

Ok...woke up this morning feeling a tadbit groggy, no reason wotsoever tho..*sigh*. left my house wiv cocoa and we spent about 10mins fishing out coins from our purses at d bus -stop while our buses trailed past like clouds over a country......Oh yes!!! this is totally random by the way...I'm not the type to "bitch"(excuse my french) about this but i'm totally unhappy with my short hair, went to this salon for the first time and the hairdresser flat-ironed the shiiiit outta my hair ...not pleased at all.Cant even take a picture of the hair cos it's in a poor state..Anewaisssss moving on to further interesting things.....Foodieeeee!!!!

Cocoa and i decided to have  late lunch at wagamama, hence le images....

 we drank...apple n orange juice  and carrot juice..(notice.. cocoa's empty glass)

Cocoa and i at some point randomly started reading. okk...we got bored of talking about nothing and formed reading while waiting for the food...Girlssss*

Yayyy...Food.

I had chilli men , which is deliciously tasty by the way and cocoa had something with fig leaves in it(i kid i kid)..i believe it's called teriyaki chicken donburi..yeahh!

In between meals, cocoa spotted some "hawt blokes", well according to her. I really wish i took a picture tho but sadly i did not.......anewais for dessert we had coconut reik and japanese cheesecake which was yummy by the way.it was my first time having the coconut reik which is basically coconut icecream sprinkled with coconut flakes and mango toppings.

oh yeah...cocoa decided to play with the 'paper mat' and being her intelligent self , she showed me how japanese people calculate...I really cant explain it but this is a pic tho..

lunch ended , did a wee bit of shopping and came back home. got home and started watching this movie called 'freedom writers' which is sad in a nice way.... urs truly is such a cry baby, so i shed a few tears ..it was too touching.....Church tommorow and i'm totally giddy with excitement, it's the 1st sunday in february and yeah i get to wear my new schuzz..yayyy!!

Gorgeous eh??....i knowwww. shoes are my weaknesss ..*sigh*..Anewais wish me luck with them shoes , y thank you!!...*giving u guys my most winsomely enticing smile*...

ok folks(In daffy duck's voice)..i have to run along now, i hope u had a fab weekend as well..

Gros bisous..

Tamilore....

Pacing back and forth my studio flat in london, I feel somewhat saddened at the fact that I would be leaving my uber-gorgeous  million pound(I wishhh!!!!) flat behind....but hey! What the heck , this is what I’ve always wanted , Right?????..........Moving to Glasgow ,( the city that never sleeps.... starting a new life  for myself as well as thinking more in the lines of Prada, Louboutin, BCBG and the likes.....Oh lawd!!!!Now that’s got me all excited.....................

Getting off the train at the Glasgow queen street station, there’s a sudden rush of adrenaline, at this point...I don’t know whether to scream like a mad woman, jump or better still remain composed....I am finally here!!!!!! I have dreamt ,sorry I meant( We) have dreamt of this day.......Walking past the barriers , I am gladdened by the fact that I remembered to wear a jacket  as it is a bit cold. And as we stepped out of the station, right there standing tall and regal , highly distinctive with others bowing to it was the ‘JOHN LEWIS’ mall beckoning to me, I could feel it stretching its hand towards me ,  and as I walked towards it  i saw the other shops putting their ‘Welcome ‘Sign up and walking nearer towards it , I could see an array of shops with people filing in  and out, the birds whispering, the  buzzing of the bees, the loud chit-chats , the Glorious music and  the heavenly smell of Strawberry and Vanilla...I fell in love  there and then  and knew there was no turning back...That, was my first visit to the City of Glasgow.

Deep Sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......I am quickly jarred back to reality by the loud blaring horn coming from the rented truck packed outside my flat...Thanks Ladi, Always there to ruin a beautiful moment............

‘It’s time babe’......He yells

‘I’m coming’......I yelled back.This is it, the day I’d been waiting for a wee while to come  and as I locked my  flat, walking out with my head high... I knew then that it was a start of the greatest adventure of my life.

Glasgow........Here I Come

Urs Truly,

Tams.

ELEANOR....

‘I shall not be tempted, I shall not be tempted..these are the words pouring into my mind as i  walked into the  rich interiors of the Armani store  ........so i didn’t exactly plan on shopping, between  there are actually two reasons why yours truly is out .1.) So i got these  bleached jeans  from Armani last week and truth be told i was rather in a hurry  and  couldnt be bothered  to  try them  on  and on getting home i realised it was a no-no for me.keep or Return?? RETURNNNNN...2.)  My adorable boo  is out shopping......not much of a dresser believe me????? Dress sense-0/10...........his story is for another day, cos once i start i’m afraid i dnt know when to end.....

Deep sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..............so i’m thinking  out loud to myself......how do i fully introduce myself  to u guys...Hmmmmm........I am not ur typical average  babe..infact  i beg to differ.....I am special, one  of a kind,unique  and a big time Deeva....lol, at least so ive been told....I love  anything that attaches itself to the word F.A.S.H.I.ON....bags, shoes, clothes, fashion mags, accessories.....it’s  an endless list and by God, it’s a huge weakness of mine..

Have u ever walked into the store , bearin’ in mind that ur account is blinking ‘ RED!!!! RED!!!!RED’.. u still have bills upon bills to pay, Ur rent is due in three days, ur electricity/gas bill came in last nite  and u still haven’t finished paying ur fone bills..u should be bothered...infact very bothered  but..dat dress.he monochrome one hanging on the  rack beside the purple and grey patterned dress wti h the skinny belt, which is pweetyyyyy by the way .. staring right back at you, it’s like it’s talking to u.....a mini conversation where  ‘d dress and urself of course  r the only living things  in the room.....It’s asking u to move in it’s direction....take the bold step ,a quick peek to see if they have ur exact size and (price) of course.......ahhhhhh!!!!!!size 6...perfect and  it’s nt as expensive as u thot...Take (yes/no)???? .....Maybe......then at dis point..u start talking to urself...’try it on to see if it fits or not and then u can decide.u walk into the fitting room, shoulders held high   wiv the store assistant asking...’How many do u have?........she says

‘Two ‘....u reply...u know, d monochrome dress and that gorgeous patterned dress which u are not buying by the way, but u wanna know if it fits or not....and halleluyahhhh, it fits..I mean...They both do’.hmmmm.....Do u really need them? Yupppp......between  Shade’s buffdai is next week and the patterned dress would be perfecttttt and yeahhhh......the monochrome would be perfect for brunch with the girls on Sunday.Ahhhh  blesssssss..u feel totally fulfilled and as u walk to the counter to pay.......it’s like  the weight has been lifted off ur shoulders and as u slide ur card  into the ‘square like’ machine and u pop in ur pin ..ur heart is beating slightly .....Boom Boom Boom .....and finally, there’s a light at d end of the tunnel....Card Accepted.

U walk out of the store fully pleased with ur self....Guilt free and loving urself  even more than u ever did with ur shopping bag intact..Deep sigh!!!!!!!.well that was me , yeah..Me......yesterday  to be precise, feeling damn good with my self  and i’m still loving the feeling..

So.........The perfect introduction to my utterly divine life  is a full description of ‘urs truly..My name is Eleanor Boluwatife Harrison........i’m known by those around me as ‘ella’..I am ’21 going on 30’.....sa perfect size ‘6’...and no i’m not skinny, more like  ‘slim fit’.........I have a boyfriend who dotes on me like a  baby and loves me  as well, feelings like wise  and last but definitely not the least’ ......I AM A FASHIONISTA.

xoxo..

Ella

Mumford and sons....

Yes I'm in lust....i said it, please feel free to bite/pinch/slap but honey dont rape me....i'm totally obsessed with this English 'folk rock' band...No, i'm not telling you to sell your soul to them , i'm just tryin to 'convince u rather than confuse u' on the importance of listening to good music by 'mumford and sons'.where do i start?.i mean the strings, the banjo, lyrics...etcetera..i'm not the type to rant and probably construct some epistle just to express my point..I believe people have a right to the kind of music they like or wanna here BUT i will not allow music as gud as this to pass u by....still not convinced???....  *sigh*...listen to this.

Little lion Man'...
Weep for yourself, my man,
You'll never be what is in your heart
Weep Little Lion Man,
You're not as brave as you were at the start
Rate yourself and rake yourself,
Take all the courage you have left
Wasted on fixing all the problems
That you made in your own head

But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear?
Didn't I, my...

Tremble for yourself, my man,
You know that you have seen this all before
Tremble Little Lion Man,
You'll never settle any of your scores
Your grace is wasted in your face,
Your boldness stands alone among the wreck
Now learn from your mother or else spend your days Biting your own neck

But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear? (x2)

Didn't I, my dear?

Ahhhhh......

But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear? (x2)

Didn't I, my dear?

PAUSE: still not convinced????......*insert music*..ENJOY!!!

Gros Bisous..

Tresor in love....

 If you sift through my blog, u'll notice the things i'm currently obsessed with...d other day it was my incessant lust with Basquiat..well today i've decided to talk more about my obsession with Tresor in love by Lancome...what can i say really??......it smells delicious and also very subtle, not the in-ur-face sorta smell that'll wanna choke the life outta you...it's just simply divine.I would recommend this perfume to anyone looking to try something different and it's also the perfect date night perfume.

Gros bisous...

Hello,Mac...

Life is so unfair , u bump into someone totally yummy and d words wont come out..y????. anewais went to the Apple store today to sort out my mac charger bla bla...so while waiting to be attended to, Hawt guy is seriously perusing the "IPAD"...danggg!!!!he is a fine brotha..urs truly is too shy to say hello.PAUSE!!!
I just realised that i actually do not "practice what i preach", in as much as i claim to be d so-called "21st century" woman, bold, audacious, open minded bla bla....my liver failed me today....standing two computers away from me was Gorgeous" and i kept mum, as in who does that??. like seriously, i could have just walked up to him and then err.....say hi??? then wot really...*sigh*

So urs truly did the most impressive thing any reasonable woman with no liver would do...I spoke to my two legs and calmly walked away, well not out of the Apple" store, someplace more convenient where i could get a good view..ahhh,i'm swooning already..*singing out loud*..'is this love, is this love that i'm feeling'...To cut the long, less dramatic story short...hawtness left zee building and i didnt even get a name..how sad!...oh well!!! probably another life.

Gros bisous..

I am....

I am a beautiful mind
I am extraordinary
I am regal
I am fabulous
I am bold
I am strong
I am unique
I am fascinating
I am absolutely divine
I am intelligent
I am a virtuous woman
I am a phenomenal woman
I am a force to reckon with
I am a righteous woman
I am a chosen generation
..................
I am ME

Bleus Mardi...

It all started that morning...
He gently nudged me...
kissed my hands and told me sweet words..
OMG!!!..
I had butterflies in my tummy
My heart fluttered
It felt very surreal
Last night was blissful
He made me cry, laugh and scream at the same time
He did things my body didn't think it could do
I hated and loved him at the same time..
Hated him cos he made me feel wonderful about myself
Loved him cos he was my dream come true
My fantasy
My heart
My Life
*sigh*....As i watched him leave the room, i just knew...

BASQUIAT

Fallen Angel...